Gone Fishing...

It's funny. There are so many things that I used to do so frequently that I haven't done in years. For example: fishing. When I was a kid my father and I went fishing quite regularly and I absolutely LOVED IT!

I was a little cute tom boy, daddy's girl when I was little. I miss it. 

Anyway, my friend Rich took me fishing last year and though I was boring and didn't do too too much because it was super hot, I must say I had a blast. I forgot how relaxing and enjoyable fishing is. Holding that little munchkin in my hand just brought me back to being a kid and fishing with my daddy again. 

I will definitely need to start fishing regularly again.

An interesting start to a friendship...

When I was 19 years old, I received a message from a boy asking me if I would be his date to prom for he couldn't find anyone else to go with him.. 

Not only was I flattered, but what I didn't tell him was that I never went to my senior prom because no one had asked me.. nor would I have really felt welcome, but that's beside the point. And so naturally I said yes.

He was taken back by me saying yes and seemed very excited and it felt really good being able to make that boy feel like a stud :) lol

Anywho, the day came, and I went over to his house all dolled up and met his family and we took countless photos and from there off we went. I had the most incredible time with him and he was so sweet and tried to dance, I say tried because... Jacob, we need to STILL give you some lessons. (inside joke)

But truly the night was so much fun and from there Jacob and I have been friends ever since. I genuinely am so grateful to have met such an amazing, caring and loving individual and ever more so I feel blessed to call that man a very good friend of mine. He's been there for me through a lot of stuff and has share countless iHop dates with me and just has a way of making me laugh and smile even when I'm upset. 

Needless to say, I'm very happy I said yes that day. :)

My past life...

Ever since I was a kid I've been obsessed with water and dolphins. I've never been able to describe it, but I've had one dream that has reoccured many times since I was very little.. Of me in the ocean, among dolphins, as though I was one of them. People tell me I'm crazy, but I believe that in a past life I was one of them. Can't explain it, I just know. 

So when I got older I got a tattoo of a dolphin (very henna style) on my lower tummy. It just felt right as I feel an extreme emotion, mental attachment to them. 

Anyway, my ex boyfriend Alex surprised me with tickets to Discovery Cove in Orlando, FL for January 1st of last year as an anniversary present and I cried like a baby I was so excited for I had never swam with dolphins before and it was one of the main things on my bucket listed that I knew I had to do before I die.

The day came and Alex and I got to Discovery Cove and I was just glowing with excitement regardless of the ZERO sleep I had gotten that night after singing at a New Years Eve party two hours away and driving over night and AHHHHH... But I was just beaming none the less. 

And I can't explain it, but getting in that water, swimming with and being next to those beautiful creatures, I just felt at peace.. at "home". It was just such a magical experience and I will never forget it ever. I mean just look at my face, I have never been so happy, it was such an unforgettable moment. 

So thank you Alex, for giving me memories I will take with me forever. And thank you to Discovery Cove for giving me the opportunity to be amongst the creatures I crazily believe to be related to.. Oh well... call me crazy, because I was a dolphin.. I know it. :)

My 21st birthday...

Back in 2013, I went to London for the first time. I was extremely excited because not only was I celebrating my 21st, going to London with my best friend, playing a show at a venue Ed Sheeran recorded a live album at, BUT I was also going to finally be able to meet some incredible people that had been supporting me for quite a while!

So it was September 10th, my birthday, and I was heading over to the venue where I'd be performing that evening and I ran into a few incredible girls and they surprised me with a birthday cake. I was so touched and taken back by the gesture and that was just the start of the evening!

I played my show and afterwards met some pretty special individuals, all with their own stories and own beautiful personality. If there's one thing I can't stress enough it that I truly can not think of a better way to have spent my 21st than along side some of the most incredible and most genuine people I have met. And I am so grateful for the love and the support they have given me over the years

Man I miss them, gotta get my butt back to London for sure.. yup yup yup. (Cue Ducky from Land Before Time.. lol)

They were right...

Growing up all I ever said was... "I'm never having kids..."; "Kids are a pain in the ass"; "I'm not the 'mother' type"... And all anyone ever said in response was "you'll change your mind, trust me you'll see" 

And I would simply roll my eyes and think to myself... yeah right. 

But now at 23, well it started at 21, every time I see a child my heart melts into a million pieces. Every friend or family member that gets pregnant, I get envious.. and as much as I HATE to admit it... all those people were right.

And I'm not in any rush, but I DO know that whenever it does happen I will not only be ready, but I will be the best mother in this world, for I will love, support and help my children in whatever way needed. I will allow them to be the person they choose to be and guide them where I see fit, but give them the freedom to make their own mistakes and grow and be good and just love those around them as I love them, unconditionally and with no judgment of their own personal choices. 

I can't wait for the day I start a family of my own. :)

The Magic of Disney

In July this past year I acted as a chaperon for my mother singing group Voices In Time. We went to Disney and there they performed at Downtown Disney. One of the nights in Disney visited the Magic Kingdom and it was pretty late, the park was getting ready to close down for the evening and we were all exiting the grounds. 

When out of no where a lovely young man took my hands and began to dance with me as if out of a movie. I may have been caught of guard but I couldn't help but smile and just live in that moment. As moments like those are so very rare and, I believe, under appreciated. 

It reminded me of a musical, where the two main characters randomly met and joined together to be the stars of the show. In the moment there was just me and him and we danced to the Disney Music playing around us. 

I look back on that night and all I can think is that that night I myself experienced the Magic Of Disney, and it is a memory I will never leave behind, thanks to that outgoing wonderful boy.

My first time with contouring??

On October 2nd, 2015 I decided to go out for the night with some friends to EGO, where one of my roommates is a host for drag nights.

We all decided to Halloween themed makeup. And I had NO idea what I was doing so I started experimenting and doing whatever came naturally.. and the result was a zombie contour... I started off with a white shade all over my face and began adding in shading with grey and black makeup. 

Basically I ended up stumbling upon contouring and that began my REAL interest in actually teaching myself how to do real makeup...

It all started by accident... who would've thought...?